Long time no see

Hiii! As you may have noticed, I haven't been writing in this blog for a while. I know it's been a long time since my last entry (almost 3 months ._.), and I'm really sorry for that. I just haven't had the energy to write anything, but here I am!

What happened

During those 3 months I asked myself a lot of questions, such as "Is it normal that I'm so distracted?" or "Why do I feel so tired all the time?". For this reason, I went to a neuropsychiatrist, and after a few tests (and weeks), I was diagnosed with ADHD and autism. I was really surprised by this, but at the same time it made a lot of sense. I finally understand the reason for so many things in my life, such as the inability to continue with my projects, the constant distraction and so on. Right now I'm waiting for therapy to start, and I hope it will help me a lot. I also want to say that I'm not sad about this diagnosis. I'm actually happy, because now I understand myself better and I can work on improving myself :3

What about the blog

I'm going to slowly continue working on this blog, so I'll keep writing and changing things, but it is not easy to do so: I find it really difficult to write about myself, and I also find it very difficult to start writing again after some inactivity. So this time I won't promise anything here, no plans, no nothing, just know that this blog is not dead and that I will keep working on it, even if slowly.

What about the chat??

As some of you may have noticed, the chatbox feature has been disabled for some time now, and there are a few reasons for this. The first reason is that I'm not able to moderate it: if someone spams something at 3 AM, it'll remain there until I wake up, and I don't want that to happen. The second reason is that, temporarily, I don't have the energy to maintain it, and I don't want anything to go wrong. I may re-enable it in the future, but for now it'll remain disabled.

What have I learned in those 3 months

I learned that this is a hobby, and that I don't have to force myself to write if I don't feel like it. I also learned that I should not compare myself to others, and that I should not feel bad if I don't write as much as I want to. I also learned that it's okay to take a break, and that it's okay to not be perfect.

That's all for now. Have a nice Sunday, and see you in the next entry! :3